June 20, 2018
When I started this blog I had every intention of writing about the work I do. I wanted this blog to be about fonts, colors and cool InDesign hacks, but today my brain is stuck on this silly thought of not being good enough.
When I walked into work today I noticed a bracelet sitting on my desk. I requested an intention bracelet during a wellness retreat my company held back in May, and engraved on it were the words "I am enough."
Often I find myself being my biggest critic.
Moved back home.
You need to work out Nicole.
Need to make more money.
Should I have gone to visit someone even though they do not deserve my presence?
Should I be forgiving people?
Should I be doing more?
At what point did I become some negative? At what point did I start seeing myself as not being good enough? Is it because I turned 30 this year, ended a relationship that I thought would be at a different point, have two jobs that I bust my ass at in order to pay off any debt, or is it because I thought I would be a different level of my job than I am today?
Who knows. Who cares!
I continue to tell myself the same things every time I start feeling down.
The people you compare yourself to compare themselves to other people too.
Your mind is your own peer pressure. It is a convincing liar.
There is more things right about me than wrong about me.
NO ONE has the right to tell you that you are not doing well enough!
You have to accept that you cannot change the past. You must live in the present (shout out to C.Liuzzo!)
I know it sounds stupid, but the only way to achieve self-love is to love yourself -- regardless of who you are, where you stand and even if you know you want to change.
You are enough. I am enough. NO ONE can ever take that away.